An Album born from Grief of losing 4 children and wrestling with addiction and sorrow so bad i sought to take my life. But somewhere in the dirt. I found God. Or rather he found me. I will never forget the pain and the promise of their lives but I know now it was never what God wanted for me but rather what happened to me that God helped me endure. I ask hard questions and give hard answers as if God is speaking through me in that weird mysterious way he does.